Despair

It walked into the bar and started asking questions.  For some reason, he quickly fixated on me for his questions, as if I had the answer.  As if  I had any answers…
“Do you know a man who seemed to do everything wrong today?”
No.
“Did it feel like he could do no right?  I mean he couldn’t get which hand was his right hand if you asked him
10 times today.  I mean he was having a breakdown of epic proportions, but seemed only half aware.”
Don’t we all have days like that?

“No, this man went 0-3 when asked to set a table.  I asked him to put the fork down in the correct spot, and he guessed right, as in the not the left side. When I corrected him, I asked him to set the next place.  He remembered being taught, ‘left has 4 letters and so does fork so it goes left.’  Never mind my just having told him for the setting next to him.  He looked at his hands, to figure out which is left saying, ‘stick out your thumb and L appears on left hand.’  Still, it seemed he had no thumbs today which upset him. He just placed the fork down quickly in frustration, and he was wrong again.  So I asked him to reach across the table and set the last place.  He put the fork on the left this time, his left from across the table.  He was very annoyed at being wrong again.  Like I said, 0-3.  Sound like anyone you know?”

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No, everyone here is smart and sharp as a tack.  We all have thumbs.
“I don’t think you understand.  He had thumbs.  He just couldn’t use or see them for some reason.  When he got frustrated, even the simple became impossible.  He could still remember the logic to find the answer, but he couldn’t use it.  He muttered something about a Mendoza rule and how he didn’t even belong playing the game of life at this level if he is wrong on everything.”
Wow.  I think I would lose my mind if that happened to me. 
“He did seem in rather a bad way.”
Did he ever find hope?
“I am wondering the same thing.  It’s why I am looking for him.  Will you tell him I am searching for him if you see him?”
Sure thing.  Who shall I say came a calling?
“The Fractured Mirror”
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Side note from a picture posted to Facebook because I find what’s left to be as interesting as wondering what was taken. Are there that many things to be taken ahead of love, faith, peace, passion, healing, beauty, patience, and freedom? Maybe those who took already have those things?:

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Heat’s Impact- Can We Have a Little More Cold Weather Please?

I was thinking about our incredibly warm winter during lunch today.  When I got back to my computer, I saw an interesting study.  The study by the Kessler foundation was released this week showing warmer temperatures are associated with worse cognitive statuses of people with MS. http://kesslerfoundation.org/media/displaynews.php?id=220
While this information comes as no surprise to me, somebody who barely functions when warm, it does pose some interesting methodological problems for further studies or clinical trials.  The variation of individual reactions to temperatures may make larger studies even more important despite the added costs.  If a study has only a minimum number of patients thought to allow the determination of a technically statistically significant finding from a math point of view, it may in fact be reporting the significance of a small number of people’s  reaction to a difference in temperature or season.
If one could have enough people in a study, then one could adjust the results by the average impact the temperatures would have caused.  In other surveys, this same approach is done and referred to as applying a “seasonal adjustment.”  If one thinks of hiring, the term takes on a more obvious role than in a medical study.  Stores hire sales people for the Christmas season.  So when they say, “the hiring for Nov is up 5% from October Seasonally adjusted” it doesn’t just mean the economy added 5% more jobs.  If the economy normally adds 10% on average from October to November, the 5% is cumulative with the 10% normal boost.  Depending on methodology the 5% increase may be before or after the adjustment.

This article makes a case for such an adjustment when looking at MS stats and clinical trials.  If one takes this information at face value, I would be trying to run my clinical trials for new drugs/procedures during the coldest times of the year in the coldest places as my end points so I could hide/offset some negatives in the positive impact of the change in temperature.  Of note, the studies used for this were small with 40 MS patients for one time period and 45 MS patients from a different pool at the second point in time.  There are some with MS who can’t take the cold but are fine in the heat, the opposite of my reaction.  Had there been a couple of them in the trial, the results could have come back opposite what is being published here.

I am not saying I disbelieve the results or think they don’t point to some thing of importance when trying to determine the validity of different tests and trials.  In fact, based on personal experience, I would believe the results most likely valid enough to warrant further testing to determine a seasonal adjustment.  In a large study, this type of seasonal adjustment may lead to more correct identification of significant trends rather than those trends caused solely by weather.

One last note on the structure of the study’s results: they are reporting a significant correlation.  There is a saying “correlation does not equal causation.”  For example, in a NY City study, ice cream sales increased as outdoor violent crime increased.  Does ice cream cause us to murder each other?  We may all scream for ice cream, but murder?  Isn’t it just as plausible to think people buy and eat ice cream during the spring, summer, and fall when going outside is comfortable.  Then they buy less ice cream in the winter when they stay inside and thus aren’t outside to either perpetrate violent crimes or be victims of them? (note the seasonal adjustment needed for even this study)Smile 

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